After a year and a half of fertility treatments and a roller coster of emotions, the day is finally here. The day we get to tell our friends and family we are expecting.
None of this has gone according to our plans, but as God has shown us throughout our whole marriage, it's not our plans that matter, it's His.
After trying for so long my emotions just got the better of me… I needed a break. Stephen and I wanted to just take a breather and focus on becoming foster parents (which we still intend to do just in a slightly different way, ill talk about this later) so we did we stop going to all the doctors appointments and just lived our lives. Everyone told me this would happen, it was actually frustrating to constantly hear "oh you can't have kids… just stop trying, it's works every time" now I feel bad, because they were right.
Im pregnant
Im thrilled. More then words can describe, but that joy is tainted with worry and fear. We have run into bumps before so it's hard not to let your mind go there.
We didn't plan to tell anyone but our immediate family and a couple close friends for at least another few weeks, or that's what I thought. But as I'm sure you have seen on Facebook the news is out! My wonderful husband couldn't contain himself. Im not sure if I have ever seen someone so happy. His joy and faith in the Lord takes away all my worries and fears.
I have never been so happy to feel so sick. Every pregnancy symptom thus far brings me immense joy. Pregnancy is truly a gift from God, and I'm going to soak up every second of it, the good and bad.
Dana and I tried for 4 1/2 years with no success. We finally decided to go on a tropical vacation and forget about trying to have children. The month we decided to give up, we got pregnant. Sounds familiar? God is just waiting on us to let go of the wheel.
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