God is showing me more and more each day that I need to stop tying to plan out my life. Everything happens for a reason and I know that God wants me here in Texas. I moved back three weeks ago. I am living everyday as it comes, not looking further then a week or two ahead at a time. Life is so unpredictable. Its hard to look at your life and not know what the outcome will be, not knowing for the third year in a row where we will be in 7 months. Its hard trying to rebuild old friendships or even just hold on to the ones I had. It makes it harder knowing I will have to say goodbye again in a few short months. Its hard to always find the good in difficult situations, to know the loss of good friends may turn out to be a good thing. I do believe God is teaching me to lean on Him and not others, to serve Him and live for Him. At this point in my life I know that He is wanting me to give it all up to him, every aspect of it. I may not know where this road will lead, what I do know is that Gods plan for my life is much greater then my own.
